The power of subconsciousness is something I’ve been thinking of lately. It’s unbelievable how things start to happen when you open your mind; think, talk and write about your dreams. Something in the universe clicks into the right position and after that there’s no turning back. The roller coaster ride starts and soon you’re heading towards your destination in full-speed. This is what’s happening to me currently and I’m so excited, yet absolutely terrified that I’ll hit a wall or some other obstacle on the way.
Last time I wrote about my blue feelings and indescribable anxiousness. I never thought writing of it would help the way it did, but afterwards I started to weight my options. I understood I only had two options; either to stay unhappy with my job or try to figure out what would actually help me to get on the right track. I had lots of ideas in my head. I started brainstorming asking myself questions like “What am I good at?” and “What do I like to do?”, and writing answers down on paper.
Ever since I studied business, I’ve been thinking about entrepreneurship, but it’s been more like an unattainable dream than something I’d consciously pursue. After my little brainstorming session it became quite clear to me that having my own business would give me the possibility to exploit all my skills. The hard part was to try to figure out the red thread of the actual business idea – what would I sell? There were a lot of pieces missing from the picture and I just couldn’t put my vision into words.
Until one day when I came a cross one business for sale and click, I found my missing piece. Now things are not in my hands anymore, but are in motion and the only thing I can do is hope for the best. Please wish me the best of luck, I will really need it!!!
And so it’s Friday again…! I’m currently enjoying self-time at home and sipping on some really tasty red wine (warmly recommend Ca’ Marrone Appassimento Organic Wine). From the outside everything seems fine and if anyone would ask, I would probably tell a lie and say I’m doing great but the truth is, I’m actually feeling quite blue. It’s a weird feeling, almost like anxiousness and it has started to really affect my overall being. It’s been bugging me for a longer time now and I’ve tried to push it away several times, but somehow the feeling keeps coming back and it’s almost like it’s getting stronger all the time. The thing is, I’ve realized now more clearly than ever, I don’t enjoy my daily work. At all.
When I started to study business administration almost six years ago, I had an ambitious vision of me working in a large company. This image was as clear in my head as it could be, and it also made me do some pretty drastic decisions back then. My hard work paid off and I got the job I was aiming for, only not exactly the position I was expecting. I knew I was stepping into big shoes, but luckily I didn’t know all the things I know today. I’m pretty sure I would’ve thanked no to this position in that case. I’ve learned so much during these years it’s almost impossible for me to understand. Me, being the worst person ever in maths back in school, am now working in large, several million euro projects, taking care of cost engineering, cost estimates and overall project control. Who would’ve guessed! Not me at least.
Somehow I’ve managed to get lost on the way. I’m wondering what actually took me to this place I’m in right now. Why am I feeling so anxious about my work? Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve been out from my comfort zone for such a long time now and I’ve noticed it’s not getting better, it’s getting worse. I know it’s good to be challenged but I hate to feel out of control and lately I’ve had some pretty big things to handle and this has forced me to prioritize and I’ve not been able to do some things in the way I would prefer. That again has led to the fact that I feel guilt, the most unpleasant feeling.
I’ve already started seeking for answers, weighting different options, thinking and doing research. If there’s something I can learn from the past, it’s that I’ve been able to set goals and make them happen, so what could possibly stop me this time. The problem is I don’t know what I want (yet), but at least I can write these thoughts down and maybe it will somehow clear my head and let me free from some of my bad vibes.
I’m sorry for this reality check but I think most of us are struggling with these kind of things all over the world, and sometimes it can feel comforting knowing you’re not the only one. So this post is dedicated to all of you who are, as me, trying to figure out what to do next, awakening the dreams that were maybe once moved aside from something else and trusting that everything has a meaning in life. Try to keep positive!
I guess the vegan challenge was also one kind of stage for me trying to renew myself and let go of the old. It was an eyeopening experience. I learned so much, not only about vegan culture but also from myself. I can warmly recommend it to anyone. I will probably continue eating mostly plant based diet, but I will not turn all vegan, that’s for sure. I missed chocolate, cheese and butter (yes butter!) all too much!
Let’s make this weekend a good one despite the blues…
And so it happened that I’m one year older again! One year and two weeks to be exact. I’ve never cared so much of my own birthdays and have only really organized a few birthday parties during my adulthood; when I turned 18, 20 and 25. After this there’s not been so much to celebrate (just kidding)! Maybe it’s partly because of the fact that January is often the time when people, or at least me, just like to have a break and calm down after all the Christmas and New Year’s hassle. This year I made an exception and invited some of my friends over for tea and (vegan!) Oreo cake.
The cake has only a few ingredients and is super easy to prepare. On top of this it tastes ridiculously good! Even my husband was impressed, so I can easily recommend it to anyone. Maybe you have a party coming up this weekend?
Base 1 1/2 package of Oreo Biscuits 60 g vegan margarine
Filling 2 packages of foaming soy cream 300 g of vegan chocolate
Garnish 1 package of Oreo Biscuits 2 tablespoons of crushed vegan sucker candy
Cut some baking paper onto the bottom of a cake mold (24 cm in diameter) and grease the edges. Crush the biscuits for the base. Melt the margarine and mix it with the biscuits in a baking jar. Press the biscuit chips into the bottom of the cake mold. Chop the chocolate and melt it carefully in a water bath or microwave. Foam the soy cream and add the melted chocolate. Spread the chocolate soy cream filling on the biscuit cake base. Put the cake in the refrigerator for at least four hours. Remove the cake from the mold and move carefully to the serving plate. Decorate with Oreo biscuits and e.g. crushed vegan sucker candies. I used Fazer Marianne Crush.
There’s actually only a few days left of the vegan challenge and I have to say that I’m quite happy with my performance, although it has not been flawless. I have to admit that there’s been a few slips, but to my defense, it’s never easy to jump into a new lifestyle without having to face e few obstacles on the way.
Okay, so the first slip was perfectly planned. I made sea salt toffee candies including a bit of honey. I convinced myself that this is not that bad and if I continue this lifestyle after this months challenge, I will probably continue eating honey from time to time. The second slip happened at a customer dinner. I made a decision before the evening not to make a number of my new diet and just eat the served foods. It was a good decision and made the night a bit easier, but it also made me more convinced of wanting to continue the challenge. The next obstacle came a bit unexpectedly, as a colleague was having a farewell party and offered us cake and candies at the office. Again surrounded by colleagues, I felt I didn’t want to start explaining myself, so I ate one slice of the cake (and a few candies). Maybe it’s needless to say that I haven’t told my colleagues about my vegan challenge.
I’m not that disappointed about the above mentioned slippages, as I’m of this next one… milk chocolate! My dear mom gave me milk chocolate candy biscuits as a souvenir, and I’m sorry to say I didn’t have enough backbone to resist the temptation, and have been eating one or two of those biscuits every evening this week. Why oh why am I still so hooked on sugar?! One of my targets was to cut down on sugar, so I truly feel I’ve failed on that level.
Now when the confessions have been made, I’m still happy to announce I’m not going to quit. Despite of these slippages, I feel good and have gained lots more energy. Speaking of which, just look at the colors of the green juice I made last weekend!
Last weekend we also had some really cold, yet beautiful, winter days and we had to keep the house warm with help of the fireplace. This weekend will be rainy and we’ve already lost almost all the snow, which is a pity. I loved the surroundings those crispy mornings.
Hi guys! I hope your week’s been great so far! I promised to keep you updated on my vegan challenge and share some of my favorite recipes along the way. The first week went really well and I’m still super motivated. It’s been nice to try out new recipes and also make some of my old favorites. You know when there’s a tendency to often go for the same groceries, but then sometimes when you happen to buy something that differs from the usual, you actually end up wondering why you don’t buy it more often? For me one of these is definitely the sweet potato! I love the taste but for some reason I rarely buy it. When I was shopping groceries for my first vegan week, I remembered the sweet potatoes and I’m really glad I did.
Oven baked sweet potato fries are super easy to prepare and just as delicious! I’ve been making them every now and then (when I remember to buy those sweet potatoes, haha) and you could easily say this recipe is one of my favorites. Just preheat the oven to 200ºC. Peel and cut two large sweet potatoes, put them into a bowl and mix with one tablespoon of olive oil. Add salt, pepper and dried rosemary according to your taste. Spread the potatoes on a baking tray and bake for approx. 40 minutes, or until golden and cooked through. Enjoy with e.g. hummus and fresh salads. The fries taste great even the next day!
One of the new recipes I tested was this sweet potato soup. The creamy soup is perfect for a bit chilly winter days, like the one we had on Sunday. Finally we got to see some sunlight and that even inspired me to go for a little walk in the forest.
Sweet potato soup
1 sweet potato 1 onion 2 ripe tomatoes 2 potatoes oil a piece of ginger half a chili pepper vegetable stock bouillon + water 2 dl coconut milk salt and pepper
Wash, peel and slice the sweet potato and potatoes. Peel and chop the onion. Add some oil into a pot and lightly stir-fry the chopped vegetables for a while, then add the tomatoes, chili pepper and the peeled and chopped ginger.
Add water so that the vegetables are covered, pour in one tablespoon of vegetable stock bouillon.
Boil, and cook until the vegetables are ripe. Add the coconut cream, salt and pepper. Mix everything with a mixer until the texture is silky smooth. Serve with some sunflower and pumpkin seeds on top. Enjoy!
On Sunday afternoon we had our friends coming over and I wanted to treat them with a vegan dessert. I ended up experimenting a little and made a blueberry-cashew pudding topped with cocoa mousse and frozen blueberries. In this case I have to say it was maybe a bit too much and it may happen that it looked better than it tasted, haha. Well, you can’t nail it every time, right?
I have my birthday coming up in a few days, so I was thinking, I would try to make a vegan cake or some other dessert to celebrate. I’ll be turning 33 already! I can’t believe it…
My first week as a vegan has been surprisingly easy! I’ve had lots of inspiration to test new recipes and found some really great alternatives how to replace some of the food products I’ve used previously. The hardest part for me was not to give up meat, chicken or fish, but eggs and dairy products. I love cheese, greek natural yogurt, scrambled eggs and my coffee with milk.
Vegetable based diet is not new to me as I’ve used of eating veggies, and as you might know from my earlier posts and Instagram, I simply love green juices and smoothies, but during the last couple of months, mostly because of high workload, I ended up in an evil circle; poor eating habits and sleeping problems. After the Christmas celebrations I felt so blown up with salt and sugar, I just had to do something. I started looking for inspiration from blogs such as Vanelja, browsed through various vegetarian recipes on Internet and in my own recipe books and also watched an interesting document, Food Choices on Netflix, about how our diet habits impact, not only our health, but the whole planet and all living species. Then one day I came across the “vegan challenge” on Facebook and now here I am, trying out new eating habits. A vegan diet is not automatically a healthy diet, but my thought is to eat plant based and cut down on sugar and highly processed foods.
Of course I had to do some more research about veganism (which I encourage everyone to do if you choose to go on any kind of new diet). I knew the basics that as a vegan you basically don’t use any food of animal origin, but true veganism goes much deeper than that. Vegans are conscious about various things such as cosmetics, medication, clothing and entertainment, just to mention a few things that might include animal cruelty. All kind of violence and unnecessary torture towards animals is horrifying and cannot be justified in any way and I think most of us can agree with that. I’m probably never going to classify myself as an all-the-way vegan, but when it comes to food and a plant based diet I think there’s a really good point behind it all. If you’re interested in veganism I recommend you to watch the documentary Earthlings. It’s brutal but will probably make you think about things a bit differently and at least raise your awareness.
Food should never be something we take for granted, yet we never seem to really stop and think about the process behind our daily groceries. It’s food we just buy and consume but for what price? Our consumption habits are destroying the planet, either we like it or not. Climate change is real and one of the main causes along with burning fossil fuels and cutting down rainforests, is farming livestock. It’s not a big secret as we all can read about it everywhere. Instead of just closing our eyes and ignoring these horrible facts, we all should think of what could I do? We like to talk about how individuals should try to make a difference, influence, and I think there’s no better way of doing that than by making a choice.
Of those three large phenomenons, I truly think the easiest way to influence is to not support farming of livestock. Even if it would just mean being on a plant based diet for one day, week or month, it would still make a difference. It’s better to start somewhere and take actions instead of not doing anything. If I can make a difference by not eating animal products, even for just one month, I’ll go for it. Somehow I have a feeling my diet will be ongoing longer than that, but we’ll see. Even if these scary facts are right in front of our eyes, the truth is, change doesn’t happen overnight and we need to be gentle with ourselves and each others, and most importantly, try to respect each others choices no matter what our own opinion might be. Because there will always be different opinions. I think it’s better for everyone to overweight these things by themselves, without feeling pushed. Encouraging is always better than blaming. You can only choose for yourself, live by example and let everyone make their own choice.
So for me the choice to “turn vegan”, even if it’s just going to be for a month, was based on me wanting to eat healthier and to save our planet, in a small way. I can tell you it’s not that hard! I’ve already replaced cheese with hummus, greek yogurt with soy yogurt and coffee milk with oat milk. I still need to find a replacement for those scrambled eggs, though… just kidding! There’s lots of interesting vegan products to pick from and I actually found grocery shopping a lot easier, not having to wander through the meat and dairy sections.
Now when you know the reason for my choice to go through with this vegan challenge, I’ll keep you guys posted along the way and will also share some of my favorite vegan recipes. I would also love to hear about your thoughts and/or experience on veganism or plant based diet, so please feel free to leave a comment! I hope you’ll find this inspirational and maybe you’ll even like to try it yourself! I promise you, it’s totally worth it.
It’s been a while since I wrote here and it’s been harder to start writing again as time goes by. When I look back on the couple of months and what they hold, it’s very clear for me why this blog’s been the last thing on my mind. Well, that’s not entirely true. It’s been on my mind often and now I finally got a moment to really sit back and reflect on the past.
I started to write a very personal blog post on 7th of October, which I never finished…
Life is unpredictable. We all know it, but it really hits you when something terrible happens to someone you love. One of my dearest and oldest friends is now struggling for her life after a heart failure. She’s hospitalized and it’s too early to say how well she’s going to get through this.
Thank god my friend survived and is nearly back to her old self, but clearly this episode was something that affected on my routines. I felt it was impossible for me to write about something happy and superficial or anything unimportant for that matter. Of course I can now see that writing about things that matter to me had maybe even helped but the mind is strange and you can’t force things that don’t feel natural.
At the same time I started to go through a lot of changes at work. I got involved in some new projects, got new responsibilities and this of course led to the fact that I had to work longer days. At some point I really started to feel quite lot of pressure and had to give up, not only this blog, but many other things I enjoy such as yoga, healthy eating etc. My days were filled with work, fast food and TV-series. That’s it! When this kind of lifestyle goes on for a long time you lose your energy, inspiration and interest towards things. At least that’s what happened to me.
I finally had the chance to have a break during Christmas Holidays and oh boy it really did the trick! I got to spend lots of time with friends and family, get my mind of work, calm down and just chill.
I also found new inspiration to boost my well being and decided to start January with a vegan challenge! So far it’s been really refreshing and this is one topic I’m going to share with you guys. I also look forward to start moving my assagain. Yoga, walks in the forest and home workouts are on my to do list. And what comes to this blog… I will definitely keep writing here (just be patient with me) and hope to find my own style doing it. You’re warmly welcome to follow me. Got to love new beginnings!
I love spending time at home doing my own things, especially on weekends. It feels so nice to wake up with no need to hurry anywhere. This weekend I had no plans at all, only to clean around the house a little bit and just enjoy the me-time. I did my things, chilled around the house, listened to music and sipped on my coffee – p-e-r-f-e-c-t-i-o-n.One of my things to do was to decide where to put this shelf, one of my latest flea market finds. The originally dark brown surface was partially worn out, so I decided to paint it with chalk paint I had left from previous projects. I had the feeling it would find it’s place in the house and so it did in the kitchen. I like the result!
I also got to test out the new carpet I had ordered. Originally I pictured it into the dining room but it actually works better in the living room, what do you think? As you can see, I now have curtains and I think it’s amazing what a difference they made to the room. It’s a totally new feeling in there. Even our cat, Miss Helmi, thinks it’s a cozy place.I’ve been juicing every morning since the 3-Day Juice Challenge and did this green juice on Sunday. It included apple, ginger, lemon, celery and spinach. So delicious!
The weather on Sunday was amazing, so I decided to go out to the nearby forest to look for mushrooms. I didn’t find any, but picked some lingonberries and blueberries instead. I got company by Miss Helmi and she seemed to enjoy the trip as much as I did.
After my walk in the forest, I got a message from my friend, asking if I’d be up to some “therapy talk” in the forest and of course I was. Deep discussions in the forest is the best combination. And we found mushrooms!
The rest of the afternoon I spent in our home garden picking apples. The amount of apples this year is insane! We already made lots of apple juice and the plan is to make jam during the week.
This weekend really charged my batteries and I enjoyed every bit of it.